It was…It is…It will be?

Ok Edrei…here goes.

I was that girl who helped you build a ramp and hit herself in the head with a hammer. 

I was that girl who stood up to you because she did not like your tone of voice. 

I was that girl who ran away from school that day just to see if her mother really cared.

I was that girl, who when she knew you were cheating…said nothing

I was that girl who let bad things go unsaid because she was scared.

I was that girl who attempted suicide five times then realised that maybe, just maybe she was meant to be here.

I was that girl who could not protect her sisters from the evil that has destroyed one and made another a rebel without a cause. 

I was that girl who was in trouble with the police every other day 

I was that girl, who in highschool was the best musician in the class.

I was that girl who promised to show you her first born but you died seven months before he was born.

I was that girl who named her oldest son after you in your memory

I was that girl who got married and is now getting divorced.

I was that girl who met you online just when I really needed a friend.

I was that girl who sank so low, that prostitution and drugs were more important than the one friend who had stood by me.

I am that girl who told the world to go to hell.

I am that girl who kicked her habits.

I am that girl who is striving to be the best she can be.

I am that girl who is sorry for all the pain caused.

I will always be that girl who will try to fix what is probably not fixable.

I will never change who I am really because if I did…then who would I be?

~ by Tracey on August 15, 2007.