You were right.
Rememeber how you said I should take a vacation?
Remember how you said I have taken so much for so long?
Remember how I said that the stress fractures were showing?
The stress fractures broke yesterday. I had a complete emotional meltdown. I was in hysterics…yes, me. The one who acts like it would never happen. The one who can play act so well that no one at work knew anything was going on. My dad did not know what to do. I do not think anyone quite understands what caused it apart from you.
What am I going to do? As I am completely devoid of emotion right now, I can actually think logically. I did not realise just how much emotion can colour a decision or a reaction to something.
So the question is what am I going to do about the situation.
I have a plan, a three step plan. I am never going to let myself get to this point again.
You know how I have never really asked for help when I have actually needed it? This time I did.
In other news…well, I will not have to deal with the ex for a few years…he is off to uni to become a doctor! I discovered that I can do my degrees at home….
The children are doing just fine.
I will survive this just as I have survived everything else…
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